Sunday, 24 June 2012

Change Isn't Easy........

So I am trying to take control of several aspects of my life and the update is promising.

Body - I am eating better.  Lost 3kgs (6.6lbs) due to scrapping MOST of my shitty food.  I have a way to go but at least ONE part of this whole body change thing is progressing.

Job - Lots of possibilities and I hope to have good news about that.  At the moment we are at end of financial year - which in a Finance team can be graciously described as hell and chaos in a hand-basket.  But there is stuff on the horizon so fingers crossed.  Although I have to admit, I am finding it difficult to let go of a sure thing - even with chaos and dysfunction - for the possibility of something better.  Hard one to balance that one.

Home Life - Improving.  Bubb and I continue to explore our new standing with each other.  It's surprising - frustrating - reassuring - exciting - terrifying et al.  But it works for us.

When you have Depression - self analysis and re-configuration of your Life Plan can be something that happens a little more regularly than most.  It's a necessary function to keep up with how you're feeling / cycling / improving / managing etc.  This time though it actually feels like I am making some progress.

The other thing I am finding is that I am becoming more comfortable in my fat bod.  Really.  And I don't say that to illicit some sort of sympathy or compassion.  Merely objectively stating a fact.  Not that I want to stay my size - I'll have a heart attack or a massively fatal asthma attack if I do.  But I don't necessarily hate myself.  Progress.

And it's good :)



Now............ all I need to do is get the motivation to finish both my novel and my screenplay.

Oy vey - this self growth stuff does keep one busy............

Shalom

Damien

xox

3 comments:

Dean Grey said...

Damien!

May you continue to make progress!

-Dean

Wonder Man said...

keep going, boo

Damien said...

Thanks Dean

Im getting there WM