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I swear to G-d - If I hear one more normal person say "Oh I am so depressed I want to kill myself!" - I am going to go POSTAL !!!
These people have NO clue what depression actually is ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
OK haters - THIS is a negative post !!
Let me tell you what REAL depression is like.
There is a fatigue that robs you of ALL energy - you seriously feel like you have weights attached to your legs, arms and body and it is an effort to simply move !
You FIGHT to get out of bed. NOT because you are a slob or are lazy - but because you are SO mentally drained that you find it almost impossible to find a reason to get out of bed.
You find NO joy in anything - ANYTHING !!! - it almost seems like life is purposefully pushing you down just because it can. OF COURSE it isn't but that is what it feels like.
Depression is not some sort of dreamed up way of getting out of work - it is a SERIOUS mental and physical affliction that can not only prevent you enjoying life - but can literally rob you of the will to live.
Whilst my Depressive episodes these days are only a general sense of fatigue and sadness, there was once a time where I would spend DAYS in bed - FEARFUL of going outside my door.
I once had to leave a dance party - a New Years Eve dance party because I was so scared of the people around me due to my depression resulting in an episode that resulted in me leaving the party, sitting on a bench in a public park and crying uncontrollably for THREE HOURS STRAIGHT!!
THIS is depression.
Your favourite Idol singer getting voted off is NOT depression.
You having a bad day at work is NOT depression.
Please - get over yourself and remember that one in twenty battle depression and your stupid announcements not only decry my very serious medical condition for which I am medicated like you would not believe - but it ALSO makes you look like a total DICKHEAD!!!
Surf over to Wikipedia and do some research you MORON!!!!
That's my 2 Cents Worth and if someone wants to challenge me on this then BRING IT ON BITCH !!!
I've faced suicide ideation and friends dumping me coz it was too hard for THEM (Yeah coz MY depression is hard on THEM - bitches!! ) - so your petty little comments about how hard life is for YOU give me the butthole itch of the century.
Grow some character and FUCK off out of my headspace !!!
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9 comments:
Good for you, you tell them! I've suffered severe depression in my life and I would not wish it on my enemy. Their 'blue days' would be gloriously happy ones in comparison.
And don't you hate it when people think a 'pep talk' will cure all?
Some days, brushing my teeth was more energy than I could muster!
I think most people have no concept (myself included) of what its like to be depressed. Thats why when people say something like that, its hyperbole. Now if you have a problem with hyperbole, I understand. But at the same time I think you need to be all or nothing. I mean people say "I'm starving" all the time to express hunger. Of course, these people have no idea what real starvation is like. Famine, extreme poverty, etc.... are all things most of us can't even fathom. Having said, I would guess in your tirade against hyperbole, you really need to make sure you don't preform it yourself.
I have been following your blog for a few months and I have to say that this post touched me in a deep way. I have struggled with profound depression from my early teens. It is something that needs to be taken much more than it now is.
Ben - i think hyperbole is all well and good - and certainly something that adds to a healthy debate and discussion.
Perhaps I was not clear when I meant those people - and we all know them - for whom these sorts of statements are everyday conversation.
I worked with a woman who used the the phrase "Im so depressed by ...." all the time. And this lady is not an isolated incident.
Yes - ive put this post as an all or nothing post - because living with depression often feels like an all or nothing life.
There have been days where I have been physically unable to get out of bed - to hear Sally Sob-story say that her Idol being voted off has made her depressed and she doesnt know how she is going to go on - this is simply offensive.
Im sorry her favourite got voted off - but that was the choice of the voters - me attempting to live with and manage my depression is not a choice - but a necessity.
Ive been there where Ive been watching my favourite show and shed a tear when a favourite character got killed off - hell... i was teary about it for a while that night - thats the power of excellent entertainment - but to have to constantly listen to people who use the term so loosely becomes a burden to itself.
I welcome your input - indeed your comment GOT me thinking even more and I will be doing a follow up post to this blog post due to your comment alone :)
As always - I welcome any input or comment on this blog - it helps me confirm my own positions and to reevaluate some others.
After all, isnt that the purpose of debate and discussion :)
*sigh* You said it rather well. Hugz from a fellow survivor.
Back at you sweet.
Depression runs in the family and I should know. My mother has been depressed since I was a small child. She has been hospitalized about eight times. The last round had her in a lock down facility and she recieved electro shock treatments.
She seems to be doing better these days. Me, well not so much. I can totally relate to your post and how it feels to be depressed. I am still searching for a way to cope.
Till then it is just one day at a time.
DTNZ - Good rant. Comments about being depressed don't bother me, but I have a hard time with people who ask "how are you?" They expect a pleasant answer and when they don't get one they want a detailed explanation of your depression (often ending with them delivering the "lighten up" pep talk).
Somehow I've always had a seed of optimism - I keep telling myself to hold on and this too shall pass.
Good job on working out - I'm also trying to get in better shape in the hopes I can decrease my meds.
Thanks for blogging.
Thanks for the comment Allen.
I actually do try to keep a positive outlook but it can be hard when people give you the lighten up pep talk which tends to be a red flag at a bull with me.
I certainly have noticed my depression has been more manageable since i started working out.
Thanks for visiting.
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