..........I don't say this to elicit pity - but to get it off my chest.
My depression is hitting me really hard. Harder than it has in many years.
The last time I felt like this I had suicide ideation - I don't *think* I would have done anything at the time - but the bottle of sleeping tables I used to have next to my bed looked real good back then.
Our business has failed - and I am facing bankruptcy.
And I can't seem to get past first base for a job.
I have 10 + years experience and can't get an interview.
I know that there are LOTS of people out there - some far more experienced than me - but I can't support my household whilst on the dole and I *hate* being unemployed and unable to be the breadwinner.
I have dark thoughts invading my mind and my sleep is troubled.
My blog is the only thing that gives me pleasure - aside from hubby of course.
I am finding that I start to tear up at times when it is really inappropriate.
I think it's time to ask my doctor to up or change my meds.
Thanks for listening.
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*insert long distance hug here*. Go back to the dr. Have a chat about meds and see if you can get some sleeping tablets - even for just a few days. Lack of sleep won't help your feelings. Do all those things you know you're meant to do and of course blog! We love it!
Remember that you are an extended member of the 'Most Resilient Family' and you WILL get through this.
Love you xx
Sweetheart I know you care and I hope you know how much that means to me.
Shalom darling and all my love.
D
Damien, Of course you MUST go back to your Dr. & get those meds to the level that it helps. Keep blogging!! Oh, bake some cookies, just for the hell of it.
Damien, Hang in there! Yes, go see your Dr. and get your meds adjusted. Keep blogging & bake some cookies just for the hell of it!
as already said. you will get through this. it seems every where 1 looks there is something not so grand going on.
last week. i found myself in tears. not once. or twice. but 3 times in a 2 hour period.
i send good wishes your way.
Sounds like circumstances could not be worse for you right now. :( But, a change in meds might be just the thing. There are plenty of great ones out there. Like Chris said, you will get through this, because things DO change.
Big hugs
I hope you have a strong enough reltionship with your hubby to let him know how you're feeling right now. Don't assume that he's worked it out. Please tell him, and let him be there to help you.
It will get better.
Even though the circumstances are different, I reckon I've got a fairly good idea of what you're going through right now. Hang in there Damien.
In the mean time go and buy yourself some baloons - blow them all up (the dizzyness will be a great euphoric kick) and fill a room with them. Do you know how entertaining a room full of baloons can be? You'll love it - I know I do ;o)
Stay strong. I hope things change for the better soon.
Your input and advice are all welcomed and taken on board and appreciated :)
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