....................................... I'm Funky .......................................

....................and I am not talking a mirror ball. I am feel like I am falling again ...............

........ and I hate it ...................it is like a monster in me that mocks me................................

..........and yet I can sit here quite calmy with a glass of red wine and quite competently blog about it.....I can even do the first post of the Aussie Guyz ..... all the while appreciating my first guy's exuberance .... I apologise to him that I followed it with this ..........

.................. I can even take pictures......... conscious of what I am doing ........... and yet the monster inside reminds me how my brain is put together......... and it is vain...... it wants to see itself .......

.......... the fatigue I feel ..... in my head and my body......... is the monster inside refusing to tow the line.............. and yet I could be perfectly fine tomorrow............... or absolutely dreadful...........

....................... we'll see.....................................................

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